It's Not Your FAult.....

 “It’s not your fault." (“Good Will Hunting”) - Will grows frustrated and then broken down by Dr. Sean Maguire in Gus Van Sant’s 1997 award winning film.  Dr. Sean methodically repeats  “It’s not your fault,” until Will finally gives in and clings to his therapist....utterly broken & relieved. We then have Van Sant cutting the scene to Williams face where is eyes speak to the camera - knowing he reached the boy.

Good Will Hunting is one of my all time favorite movies of my lifetime.  It's in my 'Top 5' & it's due to Robin Williams.  I have always been blown away by Robin Williams comedic fast paced & heart pounding genius but watching him in a dramatic role was just spellbinding. 

I also personally loved when he would take over interviews leaving the interviewer in 'head bent over stomach' laughter.  It was hilarious - seriously hilarious.  Robin Williams is iconic.  There is no one like him and there won't be again - he was one of a kind  - entertaining all of us in his own stratosphere. I do not know many true geniuses and he surpasses those I know in his brilliance.  What an unstoppable mind.  What raw talent.  And what a true endearing spirit.  I love this video I attached at the bottom of Robin with Koko the Gorilla - you have to watch it. I think it illustrates his tender heart that his daughter talks so much about.

My heart ached by Zelda Williams (daughter) statement to the world which is posted at the end of this article.  What she wrote is captivating, heart-wrenching and so wise.  She reminds me in her writing of her father.  Let us not forget to include her, her brothers & their entire family in our nightly prayers when we lye our heads down.  It is the best gift we can provide the family and much more powerful then writing about him.

And this brings me to the manner in which Robin Williams passed away.  Oh how I wish they did not publicize the details although I understand it is public knowledge.  And oh how I wish that we as onlookers, consumers, the 'entertained' by film, focus on what his family has asked us to and that is to focus on his humor, joy, laughter, generosity & tender-heart.  Robin's daughter reiterated a multitude of times in interviews & comments that Robin had always maintained a gentle demeanor under all circumstances & moods as her dad.  How many of us can say that about ourselves or our own fathers? What a sweet and dear man. 

And now my mind goes to those I know struggling with depression or whose children are.  Speak out - talk to people - get help - do 'something' and if you do not know what to do, ask a confidante what action steps you can take.  I cannot tell you how many people I have crossed paths with that have a child who is suffering from deep depression and they do not say a word to anyone....due to 'stigma', embarrassment, fear, etc.  My heart aches for these children and families who have no one speaking out for them and it makes me angry.  I cannot help it.  What are we afraid of? Reach out to others and stand up for your children.  Stand up for yourself if it is you who needs help. And get educated on the illness of depression. And if you just cannot bring yourself to speak to loved ones about yourself or someone you love, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255.

Zelda Williams, Robin Williams daughter's statement summarizes this shock to the world so poignantly:

“My family has always been private about our time spent together. It was our way of keeping one thing that was ours, with a man we shared with an entire world. But now that’s gone, and I feel stripped bare. My last day with him was his birthday, and I will be forever grateful that my brothers and I got to spend that time alone with him, sharing gifts and laughter. He was always warm, even in his darkest moments. While I’ll never, ever understand how he could be loved so deeply and not find it in his heart to stay, there’s minor comfort in knowing our grief and loss, in some small way, is shared with millions. It doesn’t help the pain, but at least it’s a burden countless others now know we carry, and so many have offered to help lighten the load. Thank you for that.

To those he touched who are sending kind words, know that one of his favorite things in the world was to make you all laugh. As for those who are sending negativity, know that some small, giggling part of him is sending a flock of pigeons to your house to poop on your car. Right after you’ve had it washed. After all, he loved to laugh too…

Dad was, is and always will be one of the kindest, most generous, gentlest souls I’ve ever known, and while there are few things I know for certain right now, one of them is that not just my world, but the entire world is forever a little darker, less colorful and less full of laughter in his absence. We’ll just have to work twice as hard to fill it back up again.”
 - Zelda Williams

And to Robin Williams, it was not your fault.  We will keep your spirit burning bright.  And commit to daily laughter as well as speaking out about our struggles in your honor.  And thank you for entertaining the world with your hilarity and my repeated choice of words, your utter brilliance.